I know that it’s been a few weeks since I have posted anything, but I hadn’t been in the condition mentally or physically to actually think to write. Now I am recovering from my 4th cesarean and trying to adjust to having a newborn in the house again; getting into the grove of being needed and attentive to those needs. I have always had a desire to be a mother, but I didn’t gain my willingness for many children until my later teen years. I can’t explain why, but my heart has had a want to teach, nurture, love, and watch them grow. I guess it’s primal nature taking over inside of me. I don’t know, but I have noticed my heart continue to change to accept my children as the blessings that they are. Even in the midst of making me upset, I still have the love and want of them.
Fast forward to my recent pregnancy, where I’m doing too much too fast. I’m trying to make things go back to “normal” as soon as possible. I’m warring within myself because my body is giving me signals to sit my butt down, but the other voice in me is saying I have too much work to do to sit anywhere. So I’m trying to tell myself more and more to enjoy spending time with our newborn and the curious siblings that are round about her throughout the day. Take this time to get to know her as she looks at us through studious eyes. I also am trying to learn to humble myself and accept help as it is offered to me. That’s taking some time, LOL!
Well, I am grateful to the Lord for our new addition and hope that you all will be patient with me as I am trying to learn to balance my time with her and her siblings, as well as take time to post on this blog.
Question! How is the voice within my writing? Does it sound academic or does it sound journalistic? Do the thoughts flow for you, or are they too choppy? Any suggestions? Your feedback would be appreciated. Until next time…
Peace unto you!